soapboxdiner More of the same... blame the beer Dr. F: I saw that - you were flirting! Me: I wasn't flirting. I was just having a conversation. Maybe he was flirting. I don't know. Dr. F: I saw the body language, and he was definitely flirting. Me: Yeah, maybe. He's asked me out before, so maybe. Dr. F: He's 18 though, right? He's legal? Me: Um, yeah. He's 18. (and a cross between Usher and LL Cool J). Dr. F: You gonna go for that? Me: No! My God! I would feel like a wet nurse more than a date. Dr. F: Doesn't sound so bad to me. Me: *Blink blink.* Dr. F: Don't tell anyone I said that. Me: Yeah. Dr. F: How do you do that. Me: Yeah. It's hard being me. I just got it like that. It's a curse, really. I draw 'em in like moths to the flame. Dr. F: Man. What is it? It must be the confidence - the attitude. It makes me worry; if I ever had to get back out there... Me: Well, don't worry about me. They only want one thing from me, so. There's no love there for me to have. Dr. F: *Blink blink.* Me: I'm sad. Dr. F: *Sympathic look.* Me: Don't you worry, Dr. F. I'll probably get over it and be just fine. Dr. F: *Confused and Speechless.* Me: Yeah. Well anyways. Have a great night, Dr. F! I have the power - and I really hate it sometimes. I just want to be seen; not for the bitch, not for the whore, but for the independent woman who is sweet and kind and generous and caring and strong -- and the woman who is worthy of respect and true affection. I don't want to be the woman to be fucked anymore. I want to be the woman to be cherished. 7:59 pm - 10.14.04
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